The Story

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true… I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do and I was made for you

You see the smile that’s on my mouth
It’s hiding the words that don’t come out
And all of my friends who think that I’m blessed
They don’t know my head is a mess
No, they don’t know who I really am
And they don’t know what I’ve been through like you do
And I was made for you…

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I’ve been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don’t mean anything
When you’ve got no one to tell them to
It’s true… I was made for you

Oh yeah, well it’s true…
That I was made for you

When you say nothing at all

I saw her yesterday. It was a good day. A day where we did absolutely nothing and no words were necessary. It was perfect. I love being with her. Just being in her vicinity makes me feel better. I need her in my life.

Senses

She draws me in
More like myself than I am
She knows me
Speaks to my soul
Without saying a word
She is sight
When I can’t see
And music to my ears
Her voice soothes my heart
Her kiss is sweet
Intoxicating and fills me up
Until she’s in my blood
She is warm like the sun
And when she is away
I am chilled to the bone
She reaches my senses
Everything I desire
More than I deserve
I am blessed beyond measure

Bound to you

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I’ve opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us
You’re all I need when I’m holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a woman I can trust
And girl, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young, I’ve faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I’m strong and I’m sure there’s a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure
I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I embrace myself, please don’t tear this apart

I found a woman I can trust
And girl, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can’t you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment’s here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all? Come this far just to fall?
Fall

I can trust and girl, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
And finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am, ooh I am
I’m bound to you

We kissed like we invented it

Today was a good day. We went to this spot that is special to us and sat for a while talking about anything and everything. Then we kissed like we used to and when I was in her arms it was like the whole world melted away. We were us again. I’ve never needed her more than I needed her at that moment. I had to have her. She does things to my body that I can’t explain. At one point she was on her knees and I was against the wall and I swear she had complete control of me. I would do anything in the world she asked me to do. When I finished I just went limp and folded myself across her. I was totally in love, satisfied, and weak. She gives so selflessly, always putting my needs first. Making sure that I am taken care of. That I am satisfied. That I am pleased. Even if it means getting down on her knees and smothering herself, she’s going to make sure that I get mine ;) How lucky am I?

She was so sexy today. She felt so good. She smelled so good. I just couldn’t keep my hands off of her. I wanted her in a bed but we didn’t have that option today. I wanted her skin next to mine. Instead, we ended up going for round two in her car. She was on fire. I was on fire for her. She gave me one orgasm and then started teasing me promising me a second. What happened next was unexpected. I got two orgasms back to back and so intense I almost couldn’t take it. I’m talking about so good when I got out of her car, I couldn’t walk straight. AMAZING. When I say my girl has skills….yeah. Damn. My legs were still weak when I got home an hour later.

Anyway, I enjoyed the sex. The wonderful, great, amazing, awesome, sex. I also enjoyed the kissing. Like we meant it. My hands in her hair. Like its supposed to be. Kissing. I love that girl and her kissing. It was a good day. Things are looking up.

Rebuilding

She’s not giving up on me. I hurt her but she still loves me and she isn’t walking away. We are going to work on us and try to hold this thing together. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to make her see that I really do love her. I never meant to make her feel like she doesn’t matter to me. Things are just hard. This relationship is just hard. I’m sorry that I ever put her in that position and I want to make it up to her. I don’t know what I would do without her. I love her. She loves me. So we will build on that. That’s what matters.

I saw her yesterday. I needed to make love to her. To make it up to her. To feel connected to her again, but she wasn’t ready. It broke my heart. I understood but it still hurt. I don’t know how to fix that. It’s the one thing we’ve always done right. I wanted a room, a bed, closeness. She appeased me by using her hand and it was good all four times but it wasn’t making love. I’ll wait until she’s ready, but I feel like there is a hole in me. I need to make up with her. It physically hurts.

Sometimes

Sometimes I close my eyes and she is mine
No one else
And nothing else matters
There is only she and I
We are happy
Everything is how it should be
How I want it to be
I can hold her hand
And touch her face
Look into her eyes
And know that we belong
There is no drama
No hurt
No what ifs
Or broken promises
There is only hope
And forever
And right now
And In that moment
I believe that this is right
And good
And will work
And I cling to that
When sometimes disappear
And fade
And the doubt and fear comes back
I cling to that
When sometimes disappear